And It Goes Like This....

tryin' to figure out... why i can't sleep at night... ita something... that i've been feelin'... deep down in my gut... probably nothing serious... but who am i foolin'... maybe its a feelin'... that i may be... tryin' a little too hard... but some say... its better than not tryin' at all... i feel like... its going to push away... somebody i truly love... someone i truly care about... i really don't want to feel that way... but with these sleepless nights... those feelings are not gonna go away... not anytime soon for that matter... what should i do?... i'm scared to tell this person my true feelings... i don't want this special someone... to ever leave my life... she's been very grateful of me... but if I keep having these feelings... then she might just leave me after all... at times... i wish I had thee answers... i don't even have thee questions... .... ... .. . til nex time... -aypohetikvois 

have you ever... felt like... you were never enough... felt like... thee whole world... was against you... have you ever... been so stressed out... that it made your feelings... feel so numb... it left you so broken... have you ever... been through so much... still wondering... how you made it this far.... questioning yourself and wondering.... if you have strength... to go any further... like thee thought of... if your time is running out... will all this shit be worth it... in thee end... have you ever... why would you... ever put yourself... in this situation... its times where... I wish I could... put my heart... where my gut is... cause I tend to follow it more... ... ... ... ... *can't think of anything else* have you ever just... 😞 -aypohetikvois 

is there a limit to starting over in life?.... what did you learn from.... thee first 2 attempts?... what results did you receive?.... how did it end for you?.... like how many times... do you need to start over... just to get it right... sometimes this feeling... can be very stressful... with little to no support system... people don't seem to understand... what that can do to a person's mental health... then you ask yourself... will all this be well worth it... in thee end?... it really takes so much... out of a person... just to have thee strength... to want to start over.... mentally and physically... you're feeling two different types of energy.... moral of this post... i hope... that this start over... is thee last one... and that i truly get where i need to be.... take care beautiful people... - aypohetikvois