That Gut Feelin'...

tryin' to figure out...
why i can't sleep at night...
ita something...
that i've been feelin'...
deep down in my gut...
probably nothing serious...
but who am i foolin'...
maybe its a feelin'...
that i may be...
tryin' a little too hard...
but some say...
its better than not tryin' at all...
i feel like...
its going to push away...
somebody i truly love...
someone i truly care about...
i really don't want to feel that way...
but with these sleepless nights...
those feelings are not gonna go away...
not anytime soon for that matter...
what should i do?...
i'm scared to tell this person my true feelings...
i don't want this special someone...
to ever leave my life...
she's been very grateful of me...
but if I keep having these feelings...
then she might just leave me after all...
at times...
i wish I had thee answers...
i don't even have thee questions...
....
...
..
.
til nex time...

-aypohetikvois 

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