just some thoughts....

honestly...

I can't even...

explain to you...

without getting emotional...

on how I made it...

this far...

going through a divorce...

having to quit my job...

last year...

being homeless...

no food for days...

finally getting a job...

living from hotel to hotel..

even at times...

when I didn't have money for a room...

I would...

end up...

sleeping outside the hotel...

going to work...

risking that my stuff might get stolen...

but somehow...

a few months ago...

I manage to get myself...

my own place...

this is just the beginning...

with that being said...

please take this ride with me...

to a much better life...

dive into the mind of a cancer...

the good...

the bad...

lets make some memories together...

I love you all... 

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