911

-calls 911-

"911 what's your emergency?"

there's really no emergency, just need to vent...

"you don't have family or friends?"

they don't understand my feelings

sometimes i don't really tell them

how i truly feel or what i'm going through

"why is that sir?"

i don't want them to worry about me

for thee wrong reasons

i hide my pain with a fake smile...

i think my thoughts out loud, with no sound

"do you feel people only hear and don't listen?"

People only hear your heart but won't listen to your pain

some people think you're selfish

when you chose peace over stress

you see, I let my feelings keep my pain silent for 2 years

now I must let it be heard

"would doing this make you feel better?"

to be honest, i don't know, you won't get results

if you don't try right?

I've become a different person thee separation

i'm trying to distance myself from pain

so i can gwt closer to peace

if your energy doesn't touch positive 

then i don't want to feel it

"how are you going to maintain?"

that's thee challenge, my thoughts are motivated

but my actions are stressfully layzie

"whatever it is that you're searching for, I hope it's all good"

i feel so much better getting this all out, thank you so much for listening and being there for me

"sir you're welcome, take care of yourself please, please don't hesitate to reach out"

may i ask who i'm talking to?

"your guardian angel, Zerline.....

-dail tone-

*wakes up*